Romans 7:24-25
 I've tried everything and nothing helps. I'm at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me? Isn't that the real question? 
The answer, thank God, is that Jesus Christ can and does. He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions where I want to serve God with all my heart and mind, but am pulled by the influence of sin to do something totally different.
Romans 8:1-2

With the arrival of Jesus, the Messiah, that fateful dilemma is resolved. Those who enter into Christ's being-here-for-us no longer have to live under a continuous, low-lying black cloud. 
 A new power is in operation. The Spirit of life in Christ, like a strong wind, has magnificently cleared the air, freeing you from a fated lifetime of brutal tyranny at the hands of sin and death.

 I got into a relationship ready to share myself except I didn't know myself well enough, so I ended up sharing all the wrong parts of myself. I loved me but I didn’t love me well enough to shield myself from an unnecessary heartbreak but ironically, Love saved me. Not love from a man or from the outside world, but the love I found in the deepest parts of me that I have now associated with a higher power, saved me.

“I found God in myself
and I loved her
I loved her fiercely”--Ntozake Shange
That relationship broke me and took away all the self-esteem, self-confidence, self-love I had worked so hard for replacing them with self-hate, self-loathe and self-doubt. I was headed in the wrong path, and someway, somehow, this particular type of love came to my rescue--She  saved me from myself. She brought out this nameless and for lack of better words, alter ego I undoubtedly love with all my being. The same alter ego that has taught me to embrace every indescribable joy and endless possibilities that comes along with love. This love breathe a new life into my heart and soul and made me whole again. This love desperately made me want to a better person, not for anyone, but for myself. This love brought light back into my life and saved me from the eternal gloom that my life was headed towards. She made me feel liberated and free.

I figured out some of my many "flaws" and instead of criticizing, I embraced them. The scars on my thighs and the dark spots under my eye,, I embraced them all because they represented this particular love. I loved me and although, the great Oscar Wilde might have said the heart was meant to be broken, I truly believe mines was meant to save me and maybe, just maybe, save others.

So, here I am, after my first heartbreak, trying desperately to convince myself and you that despite the inevitable that are heartbreaks and betrayals, there is this special kind of love present in each person that saves.


Love! *exhales. To be honest with you when you asked me to share when I had to love when it was difficult, I got lost in my thought, for a moment, looking back. I guess it was deep or it is really difficult to love when it's hard. I can tell you the only possible way I was able to do it in my experience was GOD,  God wrecks me off what I thought I was able to do and demanded that I love, not only did he demand that I loved but that I do it wholly and genuinely. This happens with friends and families that are very dear to me, as these people love too, they're imperfect and will hurt at some point. But I'm constantly learning to embrace how God wants me to do it, as I wanna be more like Him.


My love story is kind of recent. It has to do with loving people MORE. I thought I loved people as I should, as Jesus had commanded. But really I didn't. I loved 'aloofly', from afar. I didn't let people get in, only one person got farther than the entrance.
One day, while talking to that one person, I realized i really had no friends, in the actual sense. Casual acquaintances, pals, goons, definitely. But no run-to-you-in-time-of-trouble friends. I started thinking, what exactly was wrong?
I was loving wrong, I found out later.
Love isn't safe. It isn't letting people hover about the entrance of your heart, it's getting involved, truly caring. Not textbook interaction.
I learned that to love others is to put yourself out there, to be available, to be that listening ear that everyone talks off. Love like Jesus isn't safe, and I'm dealing with that.


God doesn't just Love us perfectly, He teaches us to Love perfectly but first we need to present ourselves as living sacrifices, ready and willing to be changed by His love and use His Love to change the world.

This is day 28 of #31daysofLovinlikeJesus you can click here to see a list of posts in these series.

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1 comment:

  1. Self love is the key to experiencing real love. You must first love yourself in other to be loved. Nice piece dear..I love all your love articles. You hv a few days left lol. :)


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